Neither here nor there…

Neither sick nor well – just seedy – both of us are, like this… in between… not much to say about anything.  And a lot to say about nothing.  The weather is beautiful and we wish it would  rain… We decide to do a market and then don’t feel well enough to do it so don’t, then sit around regretting the decision.

I have decided to re-draft my PhD defence proposal but don’t get down to it… I will have to apply for my job if I want to stay at USQ Springfield – and I do want to stay at Springfield, it is just now all working as it should – but don’t want to stay at USQ in the new arrangements made by management at the other place… would like to have a different workstyle but would like to do what I have been doing for another year maybe perhaps.  Ipswich has not been a great experience for either of us but we are pretty settled and getting on with our lives, yet change has to come, so what to do?  Look for other work around here?  Al’s job is paying pretty well although he doesn’t dislike it nor like it… something he does to bring in the bread.  Put my back into buying and selling?  Take to the road and buy and smous our way around Australia?  That feels like the go or the come or the went or the challenge or the freedom of the wind in our hair …

Then we will have to pack up our home again and store it – well will we or will we sell and divest keeping only what we LOVE?  What do we have that is that important and can’t be replaced?  Wereldse goed.  I look around me and almost every object has meaning and memories or is just so beautiful that it has to stay… so no progress there either.  Bella is our treasured hound and she will come along with us wherever and whatever… Al was asked to apply for a job in Scotland and that destabilised him for a few days…  too cold, no Bella and another interruption in my time in Australia to make up the 10 years necesary to get the pension – 2019 is the magical year,  I will be well into my dotage as it is, before that little cheque comes into the bank on a regular basis.  So some sort of work will have to be done – it will need to be compatible with reading and thinking and writing… and will have to spin my wheels and that means trading which does give me a buzz.  We wish to live each day as if it is the last so that means no more time wasted on regrets and meaningless pursuits.  Not that leisure and just being is meaningless, it is starting to feel like a good way to be.  Life without challenges feels as if it might be a good thing.  Unexpected contact with a friend from the past and it all feels as if I have lived well and fully and have been so privileged in the wonderful people I have met and loved and who are still connected in the mysterious pathways of memory.

So Chester, Sonia, David, Dudley, Tyna, Ramsay, to name a few of my angels, just know please that I rely on you, with the others who are directed by the heavenly forces, to guard and guide my choices.  You have been good guardians up to now – each one gives, gave a special piece of listening response so that I can imagine when I listen to those voices what particular wisdom might be coming my way.  Not always palatable but always rich and valuable.  Yallah and forward to the next step in love and thoughtfulness and perhaps even with careful planning who knows…

This link will take you to an album of photos that inspire and titillate and seduce me into wanting to be on the road…

https://picasaweb.google.com/105183160149035139526/TreesAndBridges?authuser=0&feat=directlink

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About retrocentricaussie

We are a pair of ageing 'gypsies' who find junk and sell antiques, especially objects from the art nouveau/art deco years and old and well-loved tools. We also occasionally buy antiques as well!! We haunt clearance sales, garage sales, charity shops and sometimes dumps. Lately we have even been to a 'proper' auction. The thrill is in the chase for good stuff at prices we can afford and still sell the items on at a profit sufficient to support us. We recycle what other people don't want anymore, we find new homes for nice things. We sell at markets and antique fairs, swap meets and wherever else we can find. Our clientele are mostly ordinary people who want something they can afford that will enhance their quality of life. We are especially pleased when generation Y buy from us. It suggests that appreciation of quality and good design is still part of our modern aesthetic.
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4 Responses to Neither here nor there…

  1. David Amies says:

    Hi Lynette,
    Lots of angst in your latest blog. Crossroads are always hard and if you are directionally challenged like me, you can bet your bottom dollar, you always take the wrong way out!
    Maybe you need to take up mindfulness meditation and live each moment as it comes and not spend too much worrying what might be around the corner. There is not a lot you can do about what lies ahead or what happened in the past.
    I won’t bore you with details of how we are coping with our leaving Australia and resettlement in Canada. There is an update on my latest blog posting which should be up in 24 hours or so.
    As ever, affectionate regards.
    David

  2. Difficult times, but beautiful writing 🙂 Keep it up – both the writing and the chin! Love

  3. Yes well meditatin classes ahve already started and living in the moment as well – but we all regress into anxiety when waiting for the universe to ‘speak’! I am busy and well and getting better. Writing the blog was therapeutic and gives some perspective. Our dogs would get along very well I am sure as well. Shame about the distance!! As in so many relationships.

  4. Angela Lownie says:

    Hi sis and thanks for this solilquy (sp!!!) to let us know of your thoughts. Hope to see you soon. Am at airport waiting for a later flight as I missed check-in by 10 mins! (Luckliy no penalty)

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